Over and Over Again, My Friend.

Fuck the Goal

I have to finally face reality with my web log. When I first started blogging I set a high goal for myself.

I wanted to be able to paint pictures with words just like the photographers I had traveled with in the Central American highlands. They were able to capture their subjects in photos. I wanted to expand on that and use a word palette to capture on paper the feelings, the words, the meaning of places. I have failed.

In the mean time they have succeeded in capturing on film (electrons) what I can’t seem to express in writing. I invite you to visit their websites. Some of you long time UMKC Kangaroos will know at least one of them.

In the mean time, I am resolving to continue my website. But don’t look for excellence or even mediocrity. It will just be me.

“If you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there." Lewis Carroll

After I had been reading a few blogs from Kansas City (and other places) for about the past year I became interested in creating my own blog. Although I never found time to even read my favorite bloggers on a regular basis, I thought that once I committed myself to a blog I would find enough time to at least make a few reasonably timed posts. Wrong!

I suppose if I wanted a particular type of blog, or a certain audience, I would do better. But I’m not at all technically-mined, I’m the wrong sex for a mommy blog, I’m a rather poor writer, I don’t have in mind being either political or humorous. I think I just wanted to start for the fun of it, without an agenda of any kind and see what might happen.

I have noticed many blogs, especially in Kansas City, are political and/or angry and I find myself reading them and wanting to fire off angry messages to the comments section. And then there are those blogs that are personal and seem to either regurgitate the happenings of the day or go into detail why the writer is in the mood they are in. I often feel I am being a voyeur when I read them and I don’t want to be.

The blogs I like best are written by people that are doing interesting things and tell about it in an entertaining way, and bloggers that go though the day just having interesting thoughts and reactions to their world. I seem to prefer the more urban centered blogs. One of my favorites from the first day I read it has been me, myself + infrastructure; of course Tony’s of Kansas City always works for a good laugh and a bit of indignation and the informational bloggers like KCBlog.

Last night as it was raining and I was lying awake listening to the soft raindrops again the rooftop I suddenly thought of a delicious post about last Easter weekend; and then I fell asleep. Maybe next time?